Last fall, Olivia started waking up in the middle of the night crying for us to come sleep with her, luckily she has a full size bed (just for occasions like this) so one of us would drag our half comatose selves into her room and settle her down, but if we attempted to leave to go back to our own bed, she would cling to our arm and start to cry again. This was not just a matter of her wanting us to sleep with her. She was scared. After about a month it was really taking a toll on all of us...she was having some pretty serious nightmares and I didn't understand why or what to do about them. She kept saying she saw faces in her nightmares, in her nightmares, she saw faces in her nightmirrors, in her night mirrors! Her mirror is directly across from her bed! We came up with the plan to put a blankie over her mirror and she has not had a "nightmirror" since. The blankie is still there over six months later.......
Some pretty tramautic news rocked our world a few weeks ago (hence my recent drop in blogging) and I am not handling the aftermath very well. At first the images and over analyzation of everything was just while I was awake....My brain was just hitting play and rewind over and over and it wouldn't stop. Finally, I guess it couldn't take that anymore and my mind calmed enough during the day so that I could focus on work and other things that needed to be done, but that has come at a price.
The nightmares I am having are of the worst kind imagineable. They are so graphic and violent, Dave says he can hear me moaning. What are the worst possible things that you could imagine happening to your children, your spouse, and even yourself? Those are all the things that are in my dreams in vivid details all. night. long. I am very aware of what is going on, and I know I am not in a deep sleep, and they don't end until I wake up in the morning. It seems to ease up a bit when I talk about what happened to trusted friends, but only momentarily....
I wish I could just put a blanket over my mirror and make my nightmirrors go away.
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Bun, we have missed you dearly. So sorry you have alot going on, that seems so intense.
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. If there is anything I can do, please let me know. I hope you get some rest soon.
Oh man. That is awful. I hate those kind of dreams. They cling to you for the rest of the day.
I hope you can have some peaceful sleep soon!
This sounds just like something Dr. Amen talks about in his book "Change your brain, change your life."
I am NOT a proponent of drugs to fix, well, anything if you can get away with it but it sounds to me (and what the heck do I know) that your deep limbic system is in overdrive. Read the book. Consider a doctor? I think there is something to be done.
Good luck.
I wish you could make them stop or I could make them stop for you:(
I'm sorry to hear you're going through a tough period. I wish there was a switch to turn the nightmirrors off. I hope you're able to work through it soon.
Oh how awful. I'm sorry for whatever you're dealing with. I hope you get some relief soon.
I know you are hurting. I'm sorry I can't turn those nightmirrors off.
Have you considered counseling? It's obviously tied to the stuff that's going on in your "awake" life. Poor thing; my heart goes out to you.
That sounds awful. I can only imagine how exhausted you must be emotionally and physically. I hope these nightmares will end for you soon.
Oh honey..I'm so sorry you're going thru this. Nightmares are tough and I wish there was something I could do for you...
you're in my thoughts...hope they end soon!
~K
I'm so sorry for whatever you're going through. Xoxo
How terrible. So sorry. HUGS!
I hate nightmares. HATE! I get bad ones only occasionally, but when I do, they're with me for days. I can't imagine dealing with them all night, every night. I hope they go away soon. I would say find someone to talk to, but you're already doing that, and so I hope that helps and quickly.
I'm so sorry you're dealing with anything so upsetting!
Been thinking of you.
Those dreams that rock me to the core are the worst...the ones where you can't separate that dream from the reality. They are horrible and I hope they end for you!!
Oh gosh, I am so sorry for whatever you are going through...the nightmares make me cringe. I just can't go there.
I hope things ease up for you soon. You know how to reach me if you need it.
I mean it.
I hope that your nightmares go away soon. I hate that for you. I really do.
Oh, if our problems as adults were as easy to fix as Olivia's nightmare issues! I know this is way late - finally taking some time today to catch up - and I started with YOUR blog (don't you feel special!) - but I hope you have gotten some relief by now. There are so many paths to take for this, and I wouldn’t know where to start. I had horrible, HORRIBLE nightmares for almost a year several years back. I would actually wake up screaming. Nothing but time fixed it, and even now, every once in a blue moon, something triggers it all, and I have another nightmare again. But the fear of actually going to bed because I had to face nightly nightmares ended on its own. I just didn’t know which direction to go for myself (drugs, doctor, counselor, alcohol……), so I certainly don’t have any advice for someone else. But I do hope it all ends for you soon.
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